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Blue Eyes Lost

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The calm of the storm has finally arisen to coast me gently upon my fated shore
In the gentle pull of a violin, every tear coaxes quickly upon my eyes
In a blink, they are hidden, only to be called back into motion for another wave
It is a quiet pondering that leads me to release all that I hold
In a moment, a stoic figure breaks to the floor,
Content upon warmed cement to lie there, despising the ever increasing puddle
To soak upon my face and remind me of that which I have run from

I observe one twine amongst silk, high upon the air
Gently caressing each delicate twist to add a mystic feeling of love
And love lost

“These blue eyes and this gaze have loved and lost… but mostly lost in my life”

I wish to once again rise to your lips but in every seeping tear
I see my reasons to hide away, in a softened solitude
And whilst I have laid upon this floor, hour after hour, wishing to take it back
I know that what is done must be done
So I ignore your calls, I ignore your empty frantically grasping hands
I turn my back, as though turning from a burning human
The solidarity upon my spine
Inches in, close to breaking, but I continue to turn

The music progresses to a tale of hearts broken and an insignificant feeling
A feeling of being forgotten
But you won’t be forgotten
For even still, in my darkest moments,
In the pacing memories that ache to reign me in, I see your face
Gazing with a romance never felt to hold me forever,
Nose to nose, breathing together, a heartfelt embrace
Of twined legs and awkwardly jointed arms
Refusing to let go, refusing to give in to the honesty of the moment

Believe me when I say,
You are never far from sight or mind,
I will watch and I will wait
For a day to once again, encroach upon a life so tumbled
So disjointed and so comfortable

Happy, Halted Machinery

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Slow-motion, I see my room turn sideways
Beds lie, held by unseen gravity, to walls
In a moment of disbelief, I wait until reality chooses to reveal itself
Lie silently, hands clasped upon my chest,
I feel as if to lie in a coffin of cotton sheets
In the dim moonlight peeking through the blinds,
I look beside me at the cold, untouched pillow
My fingers trace the folds in the sheet, reaching for a ghost

Finally, I have broken
Finally, I have felt the relief of a thousand tears
My face rests on a soaked cushion, and I cannot open my eyes
Bones weary as if running a machine
Finally, the muscles have given in
A rigid routine, destroyed from lack of attention
A glorious machine, with years of perfect operation
Grind with a great sigh to a halt well overdue

A sleep, so fleeting and hazy, returns to grace me
If only for a night
And amidst the tears and the maniacal laughter, I feel a comfort
My life may not fall directly within the lines of any definition
My choices may perplex all who inquire
But for once, I feel as a child

Free 

I feel content, happy
Tonight, I know I won’t feel the terrors that grip my subconscious so often
If only for tonight, I will dream
Of flowers and ponies, of carnivals and cotton candy
Relinquishing hold of all that I refused to acknowledge,

I can smile
There’s only one thing that could truly make this better
But that will come with time
I will wait for the blue gaze to share mine
But until then,
I will sleep soundly
If only for tonight